sad
packing, sorting, trying to work
meanwhile, a flood of epic prportions
pack up, gym. tea
it's probably a very good thing there aren't small bottles of prosecco easily on hand.
trying to pace myself.
Three months. To. Go.
Tuesday, March 30, 2010
Sunday, March 28, 2010
Saturday, March 27, 2010
a beginning
from http://www.yowhatsthehaps.com/2010/03/story.html yo! what's the haps?
(except that I don't hate my job. but the heart hopes what it hopes. or hope comes as it does. or . not sure. BRB)
(except that I don't hate my job. but the heart hopes what it hopes. or hope comes as it does. or . not sure. BRB)
day four
sort of chemically instable. unstable, volatile but not in a threatening to self or others way. one of those elements that can spontaneously combust into blathers of tears, snot, loud keening (or something less ear drum piercing than keening, but something that definitely certainly entirely means business).
Maybe a little bit, too, like the lovely five year old upstairs, whose cry and crying can go on minutes and minutes past the actual cause of tears. A crying that says, HEY LOOK AT ME, HEY, HEY. HEY! HEYYY! and then it exhausts itself, she exhausts herself, I exhaust myself.
grateful for the comments here, elsewhere, for support all around. a small but surely big enough circle of beings to remind me that yes, this is horrible. Yes, I hate what's happening. No, I am not disparaging any entity or its agents, I am merely and entirely sad and possibly angry, but not in a harm to self or others inducing way.
Onward. Three months. To. Go.
Maybe a little bit, too, like the lovely five year old upstairs, whose cry and crying can go on minutes and minutes past the actual cause of tears. A crying that says, HEY LOOK AT ME, HEY, HEY. HEY! HEYYY! and then it exhausts itself, she exhausts herself, I exhaust myself.
grateful for the comments here, elsewhere, for support all around. a small but surely big enough circle of beings to remind me that yes, this is horrible. Yes, I hate what's happening. No, I am not disparaging any entity or its agents, I am merely and entirely sad and possibly angry, but not in a harm to self or others inducing way.
Onward. Three months. To. Go.
Thursday, March 25, 2010
grieving
at sixes and sevens. popcorn for dinner because I can't commit to soup in a can or soup from the box.
I acknowledge: there's severance, there's a safety net for us, financially, and for that I'm grateful. Very, very grateful and mindful of how many people don't have that. Many many people have had far more traumatic experiences with the sudden removal of their jobs.
I've long acknowledged, too, the out-of-whack imbalance - work and life. And have realized that it's possible that a little too much of my own identity has been melded into/by the work I do.
It's now been two work days. Like the flip book version of the seven (how many?) stages of grief, I dally in denial and bartering, but have circled sadness and anger for much of the day. And touch on unmitigated weeping, mild pukiness and occasional self pity and self righteousness.
I'm angry at having to not tell students who ask about the fall that I won't be able to help them, and because I hate speaking in the passive voice (workshops will be scheduled; steps will be taken).
This is so not funny. I'm taking my longer rant to the blog that no one reads.
Pacing myself. Three months to go, To. Go.
I acknowledge: there's severance, there's a safety net for us, financially, and for that I'm grateful. Very, very grateful and mindful of how many people don't have that. Many many people have had far more traumatic experiences with the sudden removal of their jobs.
I've long acknowledged, too, the out-of-whack imbalance - work and life. And have realized that it's possible that a little too much of my own identity has been melded into/by the work I do.
It's now been two work days. Like the flip book version of the seven (how many?) stages of grief, I dally in denial and bartering, but have circled sadness and anger for much of the day. And touch on unmitigated weeping, mild pukiness and occasional self pity and self righteousness.
I'm angry at having to not tell students who ask about the fall that I won't be able to help them, and because I hate speaking in the passive voice (workshops will be scheduled; steps will be taken).
This is so not funny. I'm taking my longer rant to the blog that no one reads.
Pacing myself. Three months to go, To. Go.
Wednesday, March 24, 2010
Tuesday, March 23, 2010
working well with others
from fuiru, Resident Guest Workplace Analyst of pleasedontfireourass:
Just a tip...
Mentioning in an email that you are far too busy to correctly fill in your expense claim form and backing this up with a line telling me how much you get paid may make you feel like a big man, but it will not mean that your incorrectly-filled-in expense claim will be processed faster. In fact, quite the opposite. Also, such douchbaggery will be remembered and no benefit of the doubt will be conferred on future claims; in fact they will probably all be returned to you for the most minor of infractions.
Furthermore, the email will be passed around the finance department and everyone else responsible for making sure you receive money will see what a fucktard you are.
You have the things that make you feel like a big man, and I have mine.
Just a tip...
Mentioning in an email that you are far too busy to correctly fill in your expense claim form and backing this up with a line telling me how much you get paid may make you feel like a big man, but it will not mean that your incorrectly-filled-in expense claim will be processed faster. In fact, quite the opposite. Also, such douchbaggery will be remembered and no benefit of the doubt will be conferred on future claims; in fact they will probably all be returned to you for the most minor of infractions.
Furthermore, the email will be passed around the finance department and everyone else responsible for making sure you receive money will see what a fucktard you are.
You have the things that make you feel like a big man, and I have mine.
Monday, March 22, 2010
in the event that you'd thought that anything might possibly change
To: employees
From: senior management
Subject: plans
Date: today
As you recently heard. The Decision Makers and Controllers of Things approved recommendations based on the work of Committees. The Decision Makers and Controllers of Things expressed deep appreciation for the high level of thoughtfulness and commitment participants brought to their work, particularly in these difficult economic times. The purpose of this memo is to share with you implementation efforts that are underway.
Since the Decision Makers and Controllers of Things approved the budget, staff have been working closely with a number of leaders, senior officers and department managers to determine how best to implement the recommendations. As we have stressed throughout this process, in addition to improving efficiencies while protecting programs, plans are focused on limiting the number of layoffs that will become effective on a day and providing support for those whose jobs are being eliminated. Specifics include:
· Continued active employment, with all benefits intact, through a date.
· Severance packages, effective that next day, which will provide four weeks of compensation for every year worked, up to 40 weeks;
· Additional compensation to individuals with more than ten years of service;
· Continued contributory coverage of health benefits through the severance period. Once exhausted, continued health care via COBRA;
· Special in-house workshops on job seeking, resume preparation, and interviewing;*
· In-house training programs for basic skills as well as other specialized training programs and workshops focusing on dealing with transitions;
· Counseling and financial planning services through our Assistance Program;
· Outplacement support services ;
· Placement wherever possible in alternative positions [here].
We will soon be posting many new jobs as a consequence of vacancies held over the past year that will now be filled, jobs that will become vacant as a consequence of some of the voluntary retirement program departures, and new positions being created due to organizational changes mandated by the process. We are streamlining the vacancy review process to ensure that jobs are posted as soon as possible; Human Resources will work with applicants and managers to expedite the process and to ensure that appropriate attention is paid to the possibility of internal hires wherever possible.
Over the course of the next few weeks**, we will inform those individuals whose jobs are being eliminated. We will also provide detailed information about severance, possible alternative positions, and transitional services. Our goal is to complete this process as soon as possible but with as much care as needed. In a few departments this implementation process may take somewhat longer. We anticipate that approximately 60 filled positions will be eliminated.
The economic challenges that we are facing are real and require difficult decisions. We hope you will work with us to ensure that those affected by these changes will successfully make the transition to alternative employment.
From: senior management
Subject: plans
Date: today
As you recently heard. The Decision Makers and Controllers of Things approved recommendations based on the work of Committees. The Decision Makers and Controllers of Things expressed deep appreciation for the high level of thoughtfulness and commitment participants brought to their work, particularly in these difficult economic times. The purpose of this memo is to share with you implementation efforts that are underway.
Since the Decision Makers and Controllers of Things approved the budget, staff have been working closely with a number of leaders, senior officers and department managers to determine how best to implement the recommendations. As we have stressed throughout this process, in addition to improving efficiencies while protecting programs, plans are focused on limiting the number of layoffs that will become effective on a day and providing support for those whose jobs are being eliminated. Specifics include:
· Continued active employment, with all benefits intact, through a date.
· Severance packages, effective that next day, which will provide four weeks of compensation for every year worked, up to 40 weeks;
· Additional compensation to individuals with more than ten years of service;
· Continued contributory coverage of health benefits through the severance period. Once exhausted, continued health care via COBRA;
· Special in-house workshops on job seeking, resume preparation, and interviewing;*
· In-house training programs for basic skills as well as other specialized training programs and workshops focusing on dealing with transitions;
· Counseling and financial planning services through our Assistance Program;
· Outplacement support services ;
· Placement wherever possible in alternative positions [here].
We will soon be posting many new jobs as a consequence of vacancies held over the past year that will now be filled, jobs that will become vacant as a consequence of some of the voluntary retirement program departures, and new positions being created due to organizational changes mandated by the process. We are streamlining the vacancy review process to ensure that jobs are posted as soon as possible; Human Resources will work with applicants and managers to expedite the process and to ensure that appropriate attention is paid to the possibility of internal hires wherever possible.
Over the course of the next few weeks**, we will inform those individuals whose jobs are being eliminated. We will also provide detailed information about severance, possible alternative positions, and transitional services. Our goal is to complete this process as soon as possible but with as much care as needed. In a few departments this implementation process may take somewhat longer. We anticipate that approximately 60 filled positions will be eliminated.
The economic challenges that we are facing are real and require difficult decisions. We hope you will work with us to ensure that those affected by these changes will successfully make the transition to alternative employment.
Thursday, March 18, 2010
Wednesday, March 17, 2010
Tuesday, March 16, 2010
pizza party
is Friday.
how wrong to be so ungrateful.
so scared
and potentially bitter.
first day of sun after five rainy awful days.
we're dissipated. Scattered.
surreal.
paralyzed.
let's please get on with it.
how wrong to be so ungrateful.
so scared
and potentially bitter.
first day of sun after five rainy awful days.
we're dissipated. Scattered.
surreal.
paralyzed.
let's please get on with it.
Saturday, March 13, 2010
a little needy
engaging conversation at work with participants.
person who decides also present.
look forward to the day when/if one can smply be in a conversation without also wondering, hmm; was this smart enough? Did I listen enough, speak too much, make any sense?
And without wondering 20 jillion times a minute: is it I?
please please please don't fire our ass.
person who decides also present.
look forward to the day when/if one can smply be in a conversation without also wondering, hmm; was this smart enough? Did I listen enough, speak too much, make any sense?
And without wondering 20 jillion times a minute: is it I?
please please please don't fire our ass.
Thursday, March 11, 2010
it's everywhere
fuiru:
My boss just once again checked to make sure that I have step-by-step instructions compiled for all of the tasks that I do.
…aaaaand now I’m terrified.
My boss just once again checked to make sure that I have step-by-step instructions compiled for all of the tasks that I do.
…aaaaand now I’m terrified.
Tuesday, March 9, 2010
really? you have absolutely no idea?
Congratulations!
Please see note below, from HR – and thanks very much for everyone’s contribution this year!
We’ll find a good time for the staff pizza party (thanks HR).
**********************************************************************************
Dear Staff Members:
I am happy to announce that the Your Center has won a department challenge prize as part of the [organization] charities campaign! That means that 20% of the staff in your department made a donation to our charity partners. Thank you so much for supporting those who need it most.
Within the next few weeks, your department will receive a pizza party to thank you for your efforts – stay tuned for more details. In the meantime, I hope we can count on your support again next year!
Giving Coordinator
Human Resources Department
Please see note below, from HR – and thanks very much for everyone’s contribution this year!
We’ll find a good time for the staff pizza party (thanks HR).
**********************************************************************************
Dear Staff Members:
I am happy to announce that the Your Center has won a department challenge prize as part of the [organization] charities campaign! That means that 20% of the staff in your department made a donation to our charity partners. Thank you so much for supporting those who need it most.
Within the next few weeks, your department will receive a pizza party to thank you for your efforts – stay tuned for more details. In the meantime, I hope we can count on your support again next year!
Giving Coordinator
Human Resources Department
Thursday, March 4, 2010
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