finally

finished a thing that's been pending for.ever.

it took 30 minutes. that's it. 30 minutes, after some quantum algorithm of procrastination and avoidance since for months.
and now, it's done.

yay.

postings

I see difficult jobs posted on different lists - residential managers, care assistants, hard jobs to do, with low pay and high turnover.

these jobs make me sad. we don't look after the people who look after people in this country very well at all.

positive feedback

from a student, from a colleague.

it's not all doom, gloom and help me god I can't swim around here.
not all the time.

10 careers

...with high rates of depression...

not work

someone I know, not terribly much older than I am, is closing her business. she feels she has enough money to live on, and may possibly (I don't know, I'm guessing) pick up work here and there as she may need to.

I thought about not having work. not waking up, not going, not having that shape to my day. it seemed difficult to imagine.

for the time being, having that shape (even if it's the wrong color, cut, size and fabric) is something. can it, does it mitigate against all the other things that it isn't?

for the time being.

for now.

pleasant and positive

I'm blessed to know people who teach me something or lay some thing down at a moment when it's needed.




Whether we. you. I know how it's needed, or if it's needed. or if it isn't.

You know who you are.

Today's struggle: the balance between go along, get along; if you've nothing nice to say, say nothing; OR saying, REALLY? You're doing this, but you're not doing this?

No problem with civility and trying to be a good listener. But I am wondering where and when the time comes to just say no.
Nope, no. No, no. no. This isn't OK. This is the more of the more. the same of the same.

what is. is there an antidote to the more of the way it's always been done?

when is the moment when, after having listened and listened, and considered and paused, we just do some other thing?
or we disagree.
or we move on
or find some other something
when does that moment come? when . will we know?

also: love