Sunday, February 28, 2010

it begins

the person between the person who posted yesterday's news and me/my colleagues sent a message to my colleagues, to us, this morning.

I don't cite it here, lest there ever be a perception of my taking the piss* which I am decidedly not. doing.

The person between the person acknowledged the difficulty of the situation and our good humor. No, one, though, is amused (any more). (or ever, really). Nor was he implying that we would be. He will be scheduling conversations. discussions. ça y est.

as other bloggers and young people have said:

shit got real, yo.

Saturday, February 27, 2010

news

[one is] especially grateful for the teams’ commitment to retain jobs; nothing could be more important in the current economic environment. We have made every effort to reduce our staffing by eliminating currently vacant positions or positions that will become vacant because of an upcoming voluntary retirement. Regrettably, we will not be able to achieve the necessary deficit reduction without the elimination of some staff positions through layoffs. Decisions about exactly which positions will be phased out will be made by senior officers in the coming weeks now that the final budget parameters have been established by the [people who decide].

who. decides

much much power.
process?
I don't know.

Thursday, February 25, 2010

students good

administration, not so much

my core job - meeting this evening with students and two of our community partners. students ask smart questions. not smarty pants smart, but bright. interesting.
our partners, friend colleagues answer and are engaged. they listen. they respond.
laughter. thoughtfulness.

after hours of ass time at a different meeting earlier in the day, this was nice. a reward, but not a reward. a gift, maybe. a respite from the other horseshit.

Wednesday, February 24, 2010

weepy day

again

this time:
walk in. two men, sitting. I make coffee. one man tells another about his planned holiday. to do something costly. with his family.
I make coffee.

staff meeting. planning.

let's book a trip on a big big ship. it will sink, but before it does it will be very elaborate.
i grow wearier, wearier

Monday, February 22, 2010

today

and yes, per the good doctor and my own understanding, it's probably a good thing that one feels worse upon leaving than one did upon entering the psychiatric shell. the room with the door that closes. the therapeutic setting.

luckily, spring-like conditions prevailed this morning, so no chapping of face as one multitasked walking and crying, seeking coffee, and not much long after arriving at work.

much quiet tearfulness, followed by some shortness of temper in a professional setting, followed by home.

please please universe, don't fire our ass.

Sunday, February 21, 2010

tomorrow

time with the good doctor; days of meetings and meetings that seem to gain momentum as the week unfolds.

another week or two or three before decisions are filtered down to the rest of us.

one grows weary, weary, weary.

Sunday, February 14, 2010

Employee stress takes toll on company's bottom line

http://www.eagletribune.com/pubiz/local_story_279005555.html
including this, and other comments from the good doctor:

Workers under stress are less efficient and less healthy than more contented employees, and that's bad for the bottom line..

hmm

(and here, a truncated version: http://www.pe.com/business/local/stories/PE_Biz_D_office_stress29.677fe0.html)

the article appears in a number of publications.
stress is stress, the good doctor says.

(reminding some people of the Simpsons episode when Maggie and her peers are trying to make a break out of the Ayn Rand School for Tots where A is A and Helping is Futile).



http://hostengs.home.mchsi.com/tots/futile.jpg

and this :

Marge: Maggie is allergic to strained pears, and she likes a bottle of warm milk before nap time.
Ms. Sinclair: A bottle? Mrs. Simpson, do you know what a baby is saying when she reaches for a bottle?
Marge: Ba Ba?
Ms.Sinclair: She is saying, "I am a leach!" Our aim here is to develop the bottle within.

http://distributedrepublic.net/archives/2004/06/20/the-ayn-rand-school-for-tots

weepy day

maybe the gym.

- she sighs -

Saturday, February 13, 2010

Friday, February 5, 2010

what if

brief part of the conversation with the good doctor:

what if I just carried on as if there were nothing to fear, as if it would all be all right?

hmm

what if?

Thursday, February 4, 2010

yet more fun at work with Ex-Tabula Rasa

here, in its entirety, lest you even consider not clicking on the link:

Three hours of my life I'll never get back

When I came in this morning my boss was like, “I have a three hour teleconference call in an hour, but I’m too busy to take it. You have to do it in my office. I’ll use your desk. Try not to look stupid.”
So from 10:00 to 1:00 I sat back with my feet on his desk and listened while clueless people discussed rubbish nonsense and whothefuckcares while sitting in my boss’s chair and searching Google with phrases involving terrorist attacks, how to make dirty bombs and the best way to kill the pope. Whenever they asked me a question I’d unmute the phone and go “My boss says I can’t answer that for security reasons” and mute it and get back to hiding his shoes behind the radiator.

career advice and office shenanigans

http://fuiru.tumblr.com/post/359959564/two-truths-and-a-lie


and

http://fuiru.tumblr.com/post/368960951/more-office-fun

(with permission from Ex-Tabula Rasa

Tuesday, February 2, 2010

life and high school

please read this
i wish i'd written it

http://inthefade.tumblr.com/post/366789119/life-and-high-school

life, love, work
the good, the bad, the car keys.

from up the food chain

from way up:

> The revenue shortfall ... is projected to be substantial.

> Regrettably, we will not be able to achieve target reductions without the elimination of positions. Throughout this process, every effort has been made to reduce the number of layoffs. Decisions about which positions will be phased out and which will be open for application ... will be available after ... we ... know the final budget parameters. For anyone whose position is terminated and who is not placed elsewhere in the [company], we will offer a generous severance.

ouch.

fear and clothing.
what to wear, what to do?

waiting.

it's out of our hands. ish.
at least at the moment.
at least for now.